I'm Not Dead...Just Chillin'

Well, I can't say that I've been "chillin'" really because that makes me sound too cool, which we know I'm not. Also, I now live on the Central Coast of California and went to the beach last Friday to picnic with my family. Yes...you heard me...the beach...in November! Definately NOT chillin'!

Considering how frigid it starts to get in Montana this time of year, I do thank my lucky stars we've relocated. I'm still a little flustered that they sell winter parkas and boots around here. Seriously, I think the coldest it gets in the middle of the night is 40 degrees. Parkas? Really? I have missed the leaves changing in Montana. Fall was one of my favorite seasons there if you can call 4 weeks a season.

Anyway, I'm still adjusting to the change in locale. Although there have been so many awesome things about moving here, the feeling of displacement is tough. I was reading a post by JQP the other day and can relate since he's going through the same thing. It's hard when you establish some roots to feel so out of sorts. I really like it here, but I always feel like I'm a little lost. I know that's part of why I've not been very good at posting. I have no set routine or rhythm to my life here yet. I'll get there though, I have all the faith in the world that I will.

I'm headed up to Sonoma for Thanksgiving. My clan is joining my brother and all of his in-laws for the holiday. I have to admit there's a bit of apprehension on my part. I'll kind of be the outsider. I hate that at 34 I can still be so damn insecure. What the hell??!? I keep thinking of all the things I can bring to boost my ego and they're all food items. I feel pretty confident in the kitchen, so I suppose I feel that if I ply everyone with zucchini bread, spiced nuts and cranberry puff pastry bites, I'll be beloved! I know...skewed thinking, what can I say? I'm Italian; my life usually revolves around the next meal.

I hope all of my friends out in Blogger Land have a safe and grateful holiday! XO